kodrat

saya yang dari kecil dibesarkan 2 orang wanita yang sangat berbeda suka amazed sendiri sama satu kesamaan mereka, workaholic. ibu saya memang academic-oriented sekali, dari kecil ranking ini-itu, menang ini-itu, sampe sekolah pun gak pernah sedikit pun bayar, dari SD sampe S3 semuanya gratis! tapi trade-off nya ya menciptakan anak-anak seperti saya ini yang kebal ditinggal kuliah, dinas, rapat, seminar, konferensi, atau malah biasa diculik ke kantor, ikut rapat, masuk ke lecturenya beliau, dsb dsb. eyang saya, kebalikannya.. beliau di rumah, rajin bikin kue, terima pesenan jait baju, hobi dengerin sandiwara radio, rajin ikut pengajian, dan jago asuh cucu kaya saya yang kalo tidur harus 'diisik-isik' dan dikipasin dulu.

sampe gede begini, saya jadi suka bingung sendiri. karena gak punya tendensi untuk lebih ke arah ibu saya atau eyang saya, alhasil.. saya jabanin semua. tapi ternyata, maruknya saya kadang-kadang suka gak tau diri juga. yang ada bukannya tercipta seorang multi-talented woman, tapi malah multi-sick woman alias sering kecapekan. kalo pagi kerja, kalo sore ya sisanya. mau itu catching up with friends, masak, ngegym, beres-beres, ketemu pacar tersayang, intinya mah di otak saya cuma mau balancing life yang berujung pada torturing life. HA! gak juga sih toh saya menikmati semua kesibukan itu, dan kenyataan kalo saya 'hampir' berhasil menaklukan semua indikator kodratnya wanita membuat saya bangga sendiri dan capek sendiri. belom lagi weekend, yang harusnya jadi ajang leha-leha, laying on bed, luluran, nonton tv series, sekarang.. mana pernah?!

oh ya Allah, begitu Engkau memuliakan wanita sampai dibuatkan satu surat di Al Qur'an, tapi kenyataannya capek juga yah.. *lirik tumpukan invoice yang baru saja di hand over*

healthy stuff etc etc

when i am writing this post, i can feel my whole body is aching.
ceritanya gara2 personal training session senin kemarin, disuruh ngangkat2 beban. mau dibilang sebel, ya gak juga. karena salah sendiri udah 2 minggu sakit dan 2 minggu juga gymnya on-off. padahal dulu bisa 3 kali lho ya seminggu, lagi puasa pula!
ngomong-ngomong tentang gym, gw sekarang lagi in my sporty-mode banget deh.
si raafi juga nih gara-garanya, dia kan heboh banget yah tentang sepedahan. ya moso' aku mau diajak sepedahan ke araluen waktu itu. bisa gila aku, mas. ya ujung-ujungnya sih tetep naik mobil juga.

tapi sejak saat itu, makan juga jadi sehat banget. jadi rajin masak di rumah gitu ceritanya, nah kalo gini lebih gampang kan ngontrol makanan (kuantitas dan kualitas lho!). udah gitu, dia mah apa-apa stroberi, stroberi, dan stroberi. jadi lah tiap kali dia dateng ke rumah, somehow.. selalu aja adaaa stroberi. ya intinya asupan buah-buahan alhamdulillah jadi rutin.

pas sakit kemarin juga, dibikinin bubur trus gak boleh makan gorengan, akhirnya steam gyoza (meskipun frozen sih :p). itu enak banget lho ternyata kalo di steam! jadi nagih ceritanya. dan btw btw.. gw juga udah punya baby K di rumah alias si kinect! jadinya kalo si raafi dateng, kerjaannya antara masak, nongton berita (aduh ini nih yang paling bikin kesengsem, meskipun kadang suka bosen sendiri :p), dan lompat-lompat main baby K. intinya mah sama dia gak bisa diem.

jadi alhamdulillah, sekarang udah mulai bisa hidup sehat. tinggal nungguin si raafi beli sepeda lagi, dan gw juga mau (meskipun gak usah seheboh dia beli sepedanya), dan i'm up for cycling!

happy birthday, raafi :)

semoga cepet lulus, cepet dapet kerja, kesampean traveling keliling indonesia (jangan lupa ajak aku!), dan bisa cepet dapet PhD juga! semoga bisa bareng yaa amiin :) :)
semoga makin sholeh, makin humble dan supel, makin hardworking, dan makin adventurous juga! --> aku beneran udah mau ikut camping nih! :p

it's been a great pleasure to spend time with you. you're such a good companion, motivation and inspiration.

meeting you not only reminds me of home, but you're simply my home.

here we go..

the past few weeks have been full of happiness, despite the fact that i am sick. the person that i was talking about in my previous post, God.. he's sooo good. i must have done something really good in the past that i met him and 'have' him now :)

i don't want to tell much story about how we are. simply put, we're doing good and i feel good. in fact, i realized things are better when you're meeting a stranger and start something from a zero, hence you don't need to worry anything about him (eg. his history), as long as you're walking on the same mindway, sharing the same interest (traveling, singing inside the car!, homey), same vision and mission (mention.. he wants to teach IM too! how cool is that!) and of course not to forget, he's really kind (hello.. shopping at 6am to cook for me?), mature, superduper HUMBLE :), handyman, hardworking, funny, cute, sweet, smart (no need to ask!), okay okay, enough with the compliments. guess, when he's reading this, he must've blown away from his seat and got stuck at the ceiling, HA!

and the good thing about all this, is the fact i've never felt this good about myself. i don't have to dress up a lot, don't have to brush my teeth when he came sending porridge after i woke up :p, don't have to think twice of telling what's on my mind, don't have to be shy making weird moves, singing badly, laughing too loud, jumping all over the place, and all the weird things that i normally do. hello.. it's not me if it's not weird!

and so finally, the alpha girl from an alpha family ends up with an alpha guy (as what we expected!), and they live alphaly ever after.. :)

chicken

i feel like a coward now.

si ibu udah bener-bener mau go through all this payroll thingy with me. she's serious about it. will start teaching me not only timesheet processing, but also leave accrual, termination payment and SUPER! ya Allah, kenapa kok aku takut banget sih?? i mean it's a new thing to learn, new challenge, lagian gw gak bego-bego amat kok. gw juga cepet adaptasi dan cepet belajar tentang sesuatu, harusnya pede. pede oh pede, kenapa lo gak bisa pede sedikit sih ty? :(

i guess i should be getting a payroll book, so that i could be a bit more confident the day i'd start doing it.
yes, i have to!

office-affair

this whole office story has brought me nuts. my beloved colleague who's sitting next to me put me into this payroll and taxation full-day seminar on 3rd February next year, which means, i have to postpone all my going-back-for-good-intention. which also means.. i have to stay here for another few months right after the seminar. hence God, please give me more reason to stay.

Perth is getting boring and i need a break. a new routinity. a new friend.

woops, salah posting. alhamdulillah udah dikasih kesempatan ngerjain payroll, semoga ilmunya bisa diaplikasikan untuk masa depan dan berguna bagi umat. inget ty, orang yang berilmu itu derajatnya lebih tinggi di hadapan Allah swt. belajar dan bekerja itu ibadah, ikhlas yuk ikhlas.. :)

can't be much happier than..

meeting someone for few times, but you feel like you've known that person for ages. entah di kehidupan sebelumnya apa gimana. entah gw yang terlalu terkenal (uhuk.. mamam tuh) atau dia yang terlalu terkenal (nah ini baru bener). tapi semakin lo pikirin kenapa lo bisa sealiran gini (aliran sesat, hiii..), lo gak ketemu jawabannya, malah cuma cengengesan di senin pagi yang mendung gini.

siapa siapa? gak usah dikasih tau, soalnya dia yang lagi baca ini, juga pasti udah ngerasa sendiri :p

lo gak tau kan gimana rasanya ketemu molly dan oshin disatuin di satu badan, plus otak gw pula. kayanya apa yang gw pikirin pasti dia juga pikirin, it's like meeting myself in male version. gw heran, bahkan inget banget waktu gw pertama kali ngeliat nih orang, gw sampe cengengesan dengerin cara pikirnya dia yang.. 'interestingly creepy'.

kalo mau diceritain gimana wiken gw, i'm literally running out of words then, karena yang keluar dari otak cuma.. happy! thank you for such a great trip, songs, thoughts, and of course companion. i'd surely be longing for more. till the day i see you again, rajin-rajinlah istikharah, karena good things happen to good people :)